Normality. During recovery, that was something I longed for. I’d grown up happy and healthy, and to me, these struggles I was facing aged 14 day after day didn’t seem ‘normal’ to me. I looked at my friends who enjoyed food and enjoyed life and wished I could do that too. At the time, I … More What is Normal?
It’s hard to describe to someone what living with an Eating Disorder is really like. A lot of people throughout my recovery helped me a lot and were able to sympathise…but not necessarily fully understand what it feels like to have this ‘thing’ living with you 24/7. And that’s okay! I would far rather people … More The Voice Within
I read a quote recently. It said, ‘Recovery is a journey, not a destination’. While this is a statement that is open to discussion, in the sense that some people will agree with a statement such as this and some may not, it very much made sense to me. I was diagnosed with an Eating … More Recovery is a journey…not a destination
We’re officially 2 weeks into 2018. I’ve been thinking about doing a post about this for a while, and the start of the year seems like a pretty logical time to do so. Here we go… ‘New Year, New Me’. Those four words that we hear constantly between the middle of December and middle of … More New Year, New…Hope
Walking into the little blue room. Taking off my coat/shoes/scarf. The digital scales being switched on. Heart pounding – has it gone up or down? This was at one point a twice weekly, then weekly routine in my life. The black number that flashed up above the grey background each week, in a way, determined … More A number that cannot define
There was a stage when I dismissed anyone who tried to help me. When my family and friends were getting worried about my changed eating patterns and weight loss (before I was diagnosed with an Eating Disorder), if anyone tried to have a conversation with me about it I would either nervously laugh and try … More What Changed?
It’s been quite a while since I put up a post on ‘Freedom and Hope’ but I’m back! Today I thought I’d share a poem I wrote about 2 years ago. At this stage I was doing better in my recovery journey, but still had a bit to go. I knew my illness was ruining … More Letter to ‘It’