In my early few years of Eating Disorder recovery, I always remembered dates and anniversaries of when certain things happened. The day of my first appointment to Beechcroft Eating Disorder Outpatients, the day of my second appointment at EDYS and almost being admitted to Beechcroft Inpatient, the day I was admitted into a children’s medical … More Waiting for the Right Time
Normality. During recovery, that was something I longed for. I’d grown up happy and healthy, and to me, these struggles I was facing aged 14 day after day didn’t seem ‘normal’ to me. I looked at my friends who enjoyed food and enjoyed life and wished I could do that too. At the time, I … More What is Normal?
It’s hard to describe to someone what living with an Eating Disorder is really like. A lot of people throughout my recovery helped me a lot and were able to sympathise…but not necessarily fully understand what it feels like to have this ‘thing’ living with you 24/7. And that’s okay! I would far rather people … More The Voice Within
I read a quote recently. It said, ‘Recovery is a journey, not a destination’. While this is a statement that is open to discussion, in the sense that some people will agree with a statement such as this and some may not, it very much made sense to me. I was diagnosed with an Eating … More Recovery is a journey…not a destination
We’re officially 2 weeks into 2018. I’ve been thinking about doing a post about this for a while, and the start of the year seems like a pretty logical time to do so. Here we go… ‘New Year, New Me’. Those four words that we hear constantly between the middle of December and middle of … More New Year, New…Hope
Walking into the little blue room. Taking off my coat/shoes/scarf. The digital scales being switched on. Heart pounding – has it gone up or down? This was at one point a twice weekly, then weekly routine in my life. The black number that flashed up above the grey background each week, in a way, determined … More A number that cannot define
There was a stage when I dismissed anyone who tried to help me. When my family and friends were getting worried about my changed eating patterns and weight loss (before I was diagnosed with an Eating Disorder), if anyone tried to have a conversation with me about it I would either nervously laugh and try … More What Changed?